The Double Mother
Baby Poem Part I
I wish I could make you laugh with your teeth,
a little latch lifted,
your laugh my gift.
Uncorked, you’d say,
“I AM the sun,
we can stop pretending now.”
My protectress.
My two-belly baby.
I’m in love with the mirror and you’re the mirror’s lady.
I’d sigh
and the sigh would
leave me empty
so that I can start over with you.
You knew my question was a request
and you wanted it too.
Baby Poem Part II
A shutter and a gurgle,
a bald babble and compliant broken coo—
Do you shine like your mother? A rotisserie glow or a sweetish jello sheen?
Floating in my milk-made world on the Upper West Side,
the crackling belly of a crosstown bus,
its velvet fur of rust and buttering of gas.
I focus on the clock,
measure you
like I measure time.